Ive been standing
Ive been standing round
Standing waiting
For it to come around
Then it just comes down upon me landing firm
Pounding, beating, breaking, still I never learn

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Ive been waiting; Ive been laying down
These feet are trampling me and I just cant get up now

Me please forgive me
Please forgive yourself
You dont have to
Beat yourself up again
So you made some honest errors, a little flaw
Cant you understand that you cant win them all

These proverbial feet are trampling me
Making me see that I cant be free

Even if Im free from everybody
Even if Im free from everything
I can never never be free from me
And mes who causes most my pain

Welcome to my world

And I see
That I cant see
Whats going on
In front of me

They say its paranoia
Im looking all around
Its as if my head is plugged in
And my eyes are blinded now
Cause Im always trying to figure out the truth
This chase of cat and dog
This fucking game called youth

Im not aware if reality is out there
But I still sit and stare, sit and stare
Tell me if you care
If you care about the truth
Not speaking to the old
But crying to the youth

I feel as if Ive been unplugged
Will someone leave me in
I didnt want to see the truth
Suffocated by my sins

I gasp and gasp cause Im bleeding from inside
Well its the only place that I always had
So tell me now where am I to hide
And, cant you
Plug me
Back in

Deep inside
Inside my mind
Thats where the pain sends me

Feelings of true emotions
Overwhelming as may be
Any feeling happy or sad
Well its all too god damn much for me
Within your painted picture
Lies my reality
Its a slightly different color
A color that only I can see

And so I hide on the inside
This shell on the outside
This shell on the outside
Well its shielding my mind
And when I close my eyes
I finally can see

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Deep inside
Inside my mind
Thats where the pain sends me
And when the pain subsides
Then out from where I hide
Back to your reality

And Im just stuck
Stuffed in
Cramped now
And I cant get out
And when I look inside
I feel like I cant breathe

And so I hide on the inside
This shell on the outside
This shell on the outside
Well its shielding my mind
And when I close my eyes
I finally can see

Back to your reality

I saw her face
And something caught my eye
That smile that she had
Well it penetrated me inside
And then
I walked up by her side
Tried to break the ice
But she just turned and laughed
And kept on walking by

Thats just one moment
Just one experience
Just one example
Of the chains of events to my life
Odd expressions
On those who walk by me
And thats the reason
I decided to hyde

But hey, Im fine
So its eating at my pride
And the anger that I hyde
Well its anxiously awaiting to subside
But will it get a chance
Cant say for sure
But I can tell you that
Its not the first or last time

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Every time we play for you
Its not some little show
Theres nothing out here choreographed
Its the only thing I know
Its emotion that is feeding me
Its our way of life
And its the only thing I know

So lets go back
Lets pick a grade say nine
Just trying to fit in
And my parents have decided to divide
So lets choose sides
My sisters barely nine
And now were off on this adventure called life

Ive been thinking about tomorrow
And I dont think I like anything
Cause Ive been thinking
Thinking about the future
And I dont think that it is offering anything

So I hyde - So Im Hyde
So I hyde - So Im Hyde

Transfixed by all your glory
Taken in by your sex appeal
Numbing all the senses
Taking me away from here
Your whispers in my blood stream
It flows up to my ear
Well it tells me to continue
And inhalation draws me near
So I just take take take away
Take away all the shit that Ive seen today
Hate, drugs and poverty
And the news never ever seems to change
I cant take these tragedies

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Everything I do cant help my addiction to you
You make me feel like my problems arent real
When youre around well you help me from feeling down
So cant you see youre my everything

Push the limits push the boundaries
Push away my memories
I dont care if this is healthy
Its the only thing thats helping me
So I continue on this mission of self-destruction
You gotta believe in something
And I believe it'll all be ok

And when you slowly start to fade away
I just feel so empty inside
All these feelings that I cant hide
So I embrace you embrace you once again
Youre my crutch my little friend
And without you life would end for me

And my bones start shaking
As if the earth starts quaking
Is my life forsaken
Cause thats the choice Ive made.

Breath by breath by breath...

Breath by breath by choking breath
I feel as if theres nothing left
So anxious I cant fall asleep
Too many things that worry me
And I just breathe in, breathe in
And with every single breath
Well I wish it would all just fade away

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Sink in to a memory
Technicolor thoughts of matter
Does it though it puzzles me
All I know is what Im after
No more screaming ever
No more shame
No more hopelessness
No more pain

So Ill just do nothing today
Just sit here in bed and lay
No I wont get nothing accomplished today
And it just all adds to my anxiety

And I think, think, think
And with every single thought,
I sink

No, no, absolutely no more pain
Breath by breath by breath

Humbled truly humbled
My head no longer held high
I find my minds been raped
Now its skull-fucking me in my mind
It penetrates and calculates
The distance within
Now all the pressures getting stronger
And the cracking soon kicks in

Every time I reach my goal
Something knocks me down again
Every time I think Im in control
I psycho out and lose my mind again

It starts as a vision
This vision of greatness
Until it pushes you under
And you land on your face
I have lost everything
My mind is everywhere
Back to this concrete reality
Stuck inside this concrete is holding me

I will drill right through this concrete
Break into the second layer
Hold me, grab me, cant restrain me
Now I feel as if Im sinking

Treading water
Slowly forgetting how to swim
Im going under
And all the panics sinking in
Treading water
Slowly forgetting how to swim
Im going under, going under, going under

I have nothing no more
Humbled truly humbled

Frantically fighting, Violently beating
Beating with fists right down upon
My own head, Feeling lost
Dont know whats fucking going on
My head is always lies low
Way down beneath the height it should
Dont know just how I feel about myself
But it aint good

I hate and dislike myself
And all the ways I feel
Cause if you could hear my minds thoughts
Well thats just too much hate to reveal

To reveal would steal your innocence
Would pervert and distort your mind
Cause if you cant have thoughts like these
Then youre better off than I
Your better off cause this picture
Which Ive painted in my wake
This valuable last effort
This one last chance to stake
This one last chance to

Fuck the gold and platinum
Fuck the image too
My image is reality
Its what Ive been born into
Its what Ive been born into

I have many colors
Which represent the way I feel
The colors mesh together
And the color scheme is quite surreal
The color scheme is quite surreal

I can feel your hate

Today I found myself in ruins
Lying on the ground
Everything around me ruined
Where am I right now
Why do these eyes stare at me
With misconceptioned hate
They scream at me, I turn away
I start to scream, Now, go away
Different types of thoughts running through my head
Self-conflicting thoughts drive me crazy
This one voice in my head is mine
But I just cant control it sometimes

Turn away; dont look at me
Im sensing what you feel
Your eyes they give away
And your face it just reveals
The disgust that you must feel for me
Must make you rather sick
Guess what, well I dont give a fuck
You hypocritical prick
And I cant stand a mind like yours
So narrow and naive
Believing what youre told
And denying what you see

Prick me and Ill bleed
Shoot me and Ill die
But ignorance like yours
Causes bleeding in my mind

Welcome to ground zero
Its true reality
The futures gonna take off
Tell me, where you gonna be
Where you gonna be
Where you gonna be

And I cant stand a mind like yours
So narrow and naive
Believing what youre told
And denying what you see
Judgementality

And its just another rainy day
I used to feel as if these days
These days just pray on weakness
Solemn feelings and on insecurities
So I lie here contemplating
Upon choices made by me
Now its as if Ive been struck down
Theres a heavy hand on me
Keeping me beneath the surface
And Im drowning in this sea

But then I realize out of nowhere
When the rain it starts to cease
That when the suns out there
It just feels uncomfortable to me
The sun just feels uncomfortable to me

So let it rain
Cause surfacing in this overwhelming sea
Is something I just cant handle
So Ill always be miserable with myself

My self-esteem went from positive to negativity
And it seems like all these rainy days
Well theyre all just meant for me
Cause when I smile thats just not me
Thats me acting
Thats me acting

And so I let the rain back into my life.
I let the rain back into my life.

Let it rain
Let it pour
As I ingest these sorrows more
And yet with all the rain
All the rain cant wash the pain away